Uncertainty is the most certain thing that is likely to happen in our life. People always change. Our thoughts, even our heart are constantly changing. Things that we believe this second could have been completely different from a very moment ago.

We always told that “Everything happen for a reason”. Yes. But for what reason exactly? It is our part to define that reason. Our life is a continuous journey. We have a lifetime to finish our journey. To find the reason of our existence.

If  life is a journey, then what is our dream? An itinerary? If so, when we stop dreaming, does it mean that our journey has stop? *it could be*

So, just continue this journey. Live on, keep dreaming and enjoy the uncertainty.

So I woke up this morning, can’t stop my mind into thinking about something. Why does sometime we can’t get along with one person, but we can be soulmate with other person. And my mind came up with this:

Basically, each person has their own qualities. If one person’s quality match with other person’s, they become bestfriend, soulmate, or whatever relationship that could hold ‘em together. You know, qualities need room to grow *hehe…*

But if you can’t fit in with other people, don’t hate ‘em. Because maybe it’s just your quality doesn’t match with theirs.

And this is maybe, just maybe… If we all can understand this, we could have a harmonious life with each other. We shouldn’t hate each other, we just need to understand each other. Can everyone agree with me? I don’t know… Maybe this is just my wishful thinking…

This is the thing: I always kinda have a pattern with anyone who… let’s say, could be the one for me…

argh… why did I decide to write this anyway? hmmm… nothing. So, just screw it… I don’t wanna talk (write) about this anymore.

phbt…. see? I’m mumbling. and this is what I’ve always done when I feel uncertain; about anything, especially the ‘heart’ thing… and I am. Now I wanna admit it to the world that “I have a trouble; I have a problem with my heart.”

There is a part of me that really want this thing to just end, so I can go on with my regular life, “the strong and independent yet not-so-thoughtful woman”. But there also live another part of me that really want this thing to last. I want to keep those feelings, I still crave for that attention, I still want someone to be with me…

Am I taking it for granted?

Are you taking me for granted?

Are we letting go of each other?

What are we doing?

And what am I doing, exactly?

I don’t know… never mind… this is just a rambling, don’t take it too seriously… haha…

*feel stupid*

Everyone have a BFF, at least one in their life. And I am trully blessed, ‘coz I’ve found plenty of them in my life. Even though sometimes *or many times* we have to be separated from our dearest friend, but best friend never ends, that’s why we call them BFF – BestFriend Forever.

What kind of friend we can call a best friend? That is when he/she is…

• the first person you always remember when you have something to share with, good or bad
• the first person you will always turn to when your heart is trembled
• the first person you ask for opinion when you are falter…
• the one that will always listen to you and never judge you…
• the one that will always catch you when you fall…
• the one that know you very well
• the one that you don’t have to be afraid to show even the worst part in you….

and many other things you could add to describe your best friend…

but the most important is…
A true friend is someone who knows there’s something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face.
And even when you are not standing face to face with them, when you call them, they will know the difference in your voice and recognize if there is something wrong with you…

Here are some quotes I found for best friend, and I think they could represent how I feel for my BFF:

“It is by chance we met . . .
By choice we became friends.”

“Tears may come and go,
But there’s one thing I know.
All my life you’re a friend of mine.
You can depend on me.
I’ll be fine…
‘Cause you’re a friend of mine.”
-Clarence Clemens

“A circle is round it has no end, that’s how long I want to be your friend!”

“If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn’t jump with them, I would be at the bottom to catch them.”

“Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don’t say.”

“We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.”

“When it hurts to look back, and you’re scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.”

“Together forever, never apart.  Maybe in distance, but never in heart.”

“A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.”
~Walter Winchell~

“Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend.”
- Albert Camus

To all my best friends everywhere:

Thank you for being you, for being my best friend…

Thank you for sharing…

Thank you for all tears and joy we have spent together…

Let our friendship be lasts for our life.

XOXO ^_*

*pictures were taken from many sources ^^;

I have four orchids in my house *actually those are my sister’s, since she bought it. But I claimed it as mine too anyway, coz I also involved myself nurturing it * and two of ‘em are blooming.

And they just makes me falling in love with ‘em everyday…

Here they are… so pretty and tempting…

Phalaenopsis violacea var. alba

Phalaenopsis violacea var. alba

Dendrobium *thanks to kikorangi for the correction*

my Dendrobium

Actually I am not quite sure about their name. My sister said that the violet one is “Anggrek Bulan”, and when I’m googling around, I found its latin name is Phalaenopsis Amabilis. But I totally forgot what the white one name is ^_^! So, again I am googling and found this site: http://www.orchidsindonesia.com/ and matching it’s picture database with my photo *hope I am not making a mistake * the latin name is Coelogyne Flexuosa Rolfe, and it said that its distribution are around East Java, Bali and possibly Sumatra. So I assume that’s my orchid name. But I am not sure what its Indonesia name is hehe…

*I was wrong; I didn’t have any Coelogyne, but it actually is a Dendrobium. Thanks to kikorangi for the information ^^

Aren’t they pretty…? And of course they way much much prettier if you see it with your own eyes, since the picture were taken with my cellphone’s camera ^_*

Oh and when I was googling about orchid, I also found that there is an orchid garden here in Bali: Bali Orchid Garden… Ouwwww… I want to go there… Take me there… take me there… khekhekhe…

I think I will dedicate this blog to all the post I want to write in English hehe… I know… I know… my english is not good enough. So, if you feel sick and clueless with what I wrote… don’t shoot me right away, but give me your mercy and tell me what should I do to fix it

OK, now I want to tell you all about how I feel these recent days. I don’t quite understand what and how this feeling could happen to me, but it really happening and sometimes makes me sick too

Have you ever felt like you want to do something, but you didn’t do it anyway… ? Whether or not it’s reasonable, I found myself doing it again and again… It makes me wonder, was I ignoring my intuition every time I do such thing…? You know… sometimes we are blessed with the thing so called intuition when something is about to happen in our life. And it always be our decision to believe it or not…

But sometimes I also realize that my mind tend to complicate things. So… here I am again, ignoring thing that could possibly be an intuition. *sigh…

This is my first post in my new home (blog), since I can’t do anything with my old blog http://lilmarch.blogspot.com from my office T_T

Hopefully I can write many useful things here… *but don’t expect much from me huehue… you know me… I love writes unimportant things (^_^)v

So… enjoy my little world… ^3^